20 years old, man...and still young!!!

Okay, so maybe 20 isn't as close to be being 250 like dude Crush in Finding Nemo. But it served its purpose. :]

Anyways, at this moment I'm typing it's 2355 (11:55 PM in non military time. :]). Exactly five more minutes left of my twentieth birthday day. Haha. And it was a great day! :] Even though I had to work I got a goodnight/birthday kiss. And it was a kiss from a man whom is a candidate in the running toward becoming my eternal companion. We'll hope this goes well for sure! :]

Loves loves! :]

Never has a kiss been so sweet...

So, yeah. On Tuesday night, I think...or Monday...but I'm pretty sure it was Tuesday... Anyways, I met my good friend Neil at the Matheson track to walk around. :] At the end of the walk and talk he kissed me... :] Probably THE best kiss of my life. Although, he wants to take this super slow, which I don't blame him. I want to, too. That way I hopefully can't manage to ruin it. So, I probably won't get to kiss him again very soon...but it's totally worth the wait. We seriously have not known each other for very long...but nothing has ever felt so right and amazing and I am just thoroughly twitterpated. :] The best part of this?! He's on the exact same page as me. LOVE IT! :] So, that's part of the details. More to follow. :]

Loves loves. :]

If this is love....

Then I DO NOT want it to end!!!
I repeat I DO NOT want it to end!! :]

Loves loves. :]

Do you want me? Do you not? Does it feel cold, baby? Does it feel hot? :]

Well, it's been a while since I've written an entry... and believe me I've meant to. Unfortunately, the times I had time to write I didn't know what to say. And then there were the times I had something to write but didn't have any time. Ugh, complications. Haha.

Well it's been an up and down month. On the fifth we left on vacation to Florida where we went to DisneyWorld! :] It was a fun and hectic trip, but TOTALLY worth the time away from work. Luckily on the fourth, the day before I left, my district manager came in and I had a nice talk with him and Nancy and got a bunch of things off my chest and I believe that they sure were resolved. Work has never been better, and plus I think that I sincerely needed that vacation.

This week has been especially FANTASTIC. I made a new friend, his name is Neil. And OH MY GOODNESS! :D I do believe I've never had a friendship develop so quickly and into such a strong one. He's made my week excellent. I'm definitely looking forward from here (Don't fuss, I'll keep you in the loop :]). :] Well...it's now one of those points where I don't really know what else to say. But, I will for sure not go so long without posting again, no worries. :]

Loves loves. :]

You don't know what you got, 'til you're missing it a lot. I had to go throw it away...

Well, the past few weeks have been great and weird and depressed moody all at the same time. I've been feeling lonely...which is weird. But it's how it is. I've also felt somewhat empty. My Mom's been getting quite a bit of work and I've actually enjoyed helping her, tonight was an exception because I didn't do the greatest job helping her. I guess, retardedly, I'm just tired. So why I'm still awake now and instead of in bed, where I know I should be, but still here at the computer I sit. I sit. I guess for lack of a better term I've felt somewhat empty... I'm not one hundred percent sure why, but I do. I'm certain it has something to do with the fact that I haven't been to church in a couple weeks...and won't be until the second Sunday of June. I wasn't there the 23rd because of my stupid job. I wasn't there Sunday the 30th because my family and I went down to Richfield for Memorial Day...so instead of being in church I was at the Richfield Cemetery for 2 hours and immediately after was the Monroe Cemetery for an additional 2 hours and got the sunburn of my life on my chest and it hurts like a monkey.

I am getting so sick of the people I work with I could puke, and here's why. Well, the most recent chunk of what's been building up. Anyways, on Friday I found out that Shanna was going to get Saturday the 29th off to make up for hours that she'd be working on Monday the 31st, which is totally fine, were it not for the fact that she didn't work on Thursday therefore making it so she didn't go over hours and wouldn't need Saturday off. You see, at my work we get 2 days off a week. The pay period starts on Thursday and ends on the following Wednesday. And when a holiday lands on your day off you need to have another day off. I.E. Memorial Day, always lands on a Monday. Monday's are Nancy's day off. So she had to have today off, another day off in the same pay period, to make it so she didn't go over hours. And recently Shanna has acquired Mondays off as well, to accommodate Nancy's being busy on Thursdays now due to the doctor coming in for five appointments in the morning, anyways that's beside the point. So, Shanna needed another day off in the same pay period, right? Right. And she didn't work Thursday, correct? Yes. So, I now ask WHY does she need another day off? She's already had here other day off, right? So, if she doesn't work Saturday then she'll be short on hours, correct? Yes, yes, yes, YES! Okay, so I'm not upset she's going to be short on hours, that doesn't affect me. What bothers me to NO END is the fact that they both dismiss my comments and treat me like I'm some 20 year-old know-nothing twit. And it's infuriating. I'm not stupid. I do, in fact, know what I'm talking about and you do not need to treat me like I'm some sort of retard. Nancy, did you not hire me? Did you not trust my judgment? So, why the ignorance now? I'd like to see your face once I tell you bye-bye and Shanna winds up being a gigantic pain in your ass. A pain in the ass who lies to your face and who steals from your company. I just do not trust her. I don't trust you, Nancy and I need to find a new job NOW!
Ugh, I'm so aggravated and tired and just DONE with it all.

Loves loves. :]

It's like zero gravity...

Just in case you are wondering, yes. Yes, I do title my blogs after lines of songs I'm listening to at the time of typing. :] So, now that's been clarified... I've decided that I really do like my job but I just can't take the gals I work with. Shanna, once again didn't clock out today when she went to go and pick up her husband. I understand that you're probably under a ton of stress with your son being in the hospital. But to me it sounds like he's doing well and he's awake and alert and not in trouble of something going wrong. So, focus on your job and be honest. Nancy, just two weeks ago we were on a three way with Guy and you chewed me a new one about how badly I treat you and how I never do what you ask and how I always do what you tell me not to do and about how crappy of a worker I am and blah, blah, blah. Well I find it funny how after said reaming you act like nothing's wrong. And it bugs me, I just can't work with someone who I can't trust. And I honestly feel like I can't trust you. I wish things were different, but you've made them this way. I'm super sorry that things like this are happening but I just can't deal with it for much longer.

Well the search for new employment isn't as easy as I would've hoped but I just hope I can find something as soon as possible. This week hasn't been as bad because Shanna has been out with her son's surgery, but next week it looks like it's all going back to normal so we'll see how things go.

Unfortunately this is the most eventful my life's been the past couple of weeks. I know, I'm lame. But it's me. So I guess I'll just have to survive. :]

Oh, and I have to shpeal a bit about that little boy, Ethan Stacy. I'm just so saddened by what happened to him. I pray that he wasn't in too much pain, for too long. And I also hope that Nathan Sloop dies in the same sort of way that the one guy did in the first part of "Law Abiding Citizen" where he can feel all the pain in the world. (If you don't know that scene it's probably a good thing. It's quite icky. But a sufficient expression of the pain that man deserves to feel.) Now, I realize that he will meet his maker and be punished justly but I just can't help but feel like he deserves to suffer. And that conniving beastly mother of his deserves to be beaten as well. I hope she rots in jail and writhes in the guilt she deserves to feel. I also feel so much for Joe Stacy, Ethan's biological father, whom, I can't even imagine, is probably feeling so much grief. My thoughts and prayers are with his family and friends in hopes that they can feel of our Savior's love and know that Ethan is in the arms of his loving Heavenly Father. I can't help but tear up at the thought of what that little boy went through.

Well, that's basically all I can think of at the moment.

Loves loves. :]

You can fool anyone but I've got eyes to see...

So the past week or so has been kind of hard. I've decided I really just need a new job. I'm not a big fan of how the people at my company treat me and I'm not for people cheating on their time clock, yes Shanna I did see that you faked clocking out when you went to pick up your husband and it was confirmed to me that you didn't because when you went to "clock back in" there was NO entry showing you clocked OUT! You're a liar and a cheater and I can't stand you. Nancy, you need to grow some balls and tell me if there's something I need to fix. I've hated getting chewed out by Guy because you don't have the guts to tell me yourself. Guy, you're a complete and utter ass. You have no heart, you're all business and don't consider people's feelings. And quite frankly the things you chewed me out for the other day are NOT all my fault. The one guy's a freaking sh*thead and complete and utter ass just like you. He's blowing things SO far out of proportion and wouldn't let me get a word in edgewise. To me it's HIS fault things didn't get taken care of because he wouldn't let me say one damn thing. The company's policies are just a little stupid, too. Wow kill me for adding a warranty for that man and him PAYING for a new lens and a new frame. I didn't call you because I knew you were just going to say yes anyways and I figured I'd save you the pain of having to call me when you're oh so completely busy in Detroit. My bad. Won't happen again. But then again I REALLY don't think it's going to happen again because I'm done with your company and it's employees.

Ah. Thank you for letting me get that off my chest.
Oh and then plus my little sister is in a fight with her best friend and she's a conniving piece of work. Her Mom and sister, too. Sure both parties are at fault. But honestly it's her(the best friend) who's the issue. Sure, I'm a little biased but I still try to be as fair as possible. Dry sarcasm is something my family doesn't really do. And just because our families are different and act different doesn't mean that you have to be offended at these stupid little things. When you look for the bad in someone you're going to find it. And that's where it's hurting you. If you'd look for the better I think your attitude would be one million times better. Oh man. It's like dejavu(sp??) of my senior year stupid stupid stupid fights that ruined close close friendships. That's part of the reason I hate seeing this because I know of the damage stupid things like this can cause and it's near irreparable. And I don't want to see her like I was. Because I know how much it hurts and I know how awkward it is and I think this just needs to be resolved as soon as possible. Because if it doesn't I'm just gonna have to go over and kick some ask. :]

Loves loves. :]