"My push up bra will help me get my man..."

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You must, MUST watch this video. :]Enjoy.

Anyways, last week was fabulous. :] My family came on down from Idaho...and Richfield...and it was just too much fun.!.!.!.!. However, I really just need to learn how to not tell my cousins about my love life, because for three days that's all I heard about. Now, these cousins of mine, K.C., McKay, and Cameron are about the three funniest guys you'll ever be around and they all have the cutest kids on this planet! :]

Now, on to Neil. Night before last the last text I get from him is "I love you hun sleep well" AHHH! :] And so last night I asked him if he meant to say it and he said YES! And of course I said it back!!! :] Holy cow. :]

Loves loves :]

'Cause love only comes once in a while, and knocks on your door and throws you a smile...

:] So there's this song called "If I Knew Then" and it's by Lady Antebellum.... I LOVE IT!!! :]

So, there's this boy. His name is Neil. :] And he makes me smile. Last night we went to dinner and we had a great time...I did NOT even want to leave him. Oh, and he's a VERY good kisser. Just in case you were wondering. Haha. I just LOVE my life right now! Work is going well, ONE MILLION times better than it was FOR SURE! :] My love life is fantastic! ;] And my family life is fabulous as well. I am just a happy camper. :][:

I am SO grateful for the person I am. I'm super thankful for every single trial that I've been able to overcome in my life. I would not be the person I am today without those trials and challenges. I can NOT thank my Heavenly Father enough. I know that I'm FAR FAR FAR from perfect but I'm grateful for the opportunity to repent and to be able to marry my man in the temple. :] Because when you know, you just know. And it's the best, BEST thing, EVER! :]]

Just yesterday I was reading a Facebook post written by a classmate from elementary. It was filled with comments about how "judgementle" (teehee) Mormons are. And they were saying how glad they were that they are able to think for themselves. And how they could think for themselves and they aren't "naive" enough to believe in any religious jargon and blah, blah, blah. And I just can't help but think HOW JUDGMENTAL ARE YOU BEING?!?! I mean, can you say HYPOCRISY?! And I can see their point, in some ways. I'm sorry for those people who can't see past race or clothing or hairstyles or whatever to be able to get to know who people really are. But this whole generalization of how "judgementle" Mormons are and how brainwashed every single person who believes in the church is. And I just want to say to them that the EXACT same things you hate about people who judge you are the same as why YOU judge that people/person. Every single person in the world is guilty of judging another for some reason or another. And I can agree with the speculation that some people just are incredibly judgmental, but I also believe that we are ALL human. NO ONE is perfect! But we all are ourselves, there are still SO many things that we need to overcome as a society. But ya know, they were fighting the same fight we are today since way back when Christ was on the earth. There's not going to be a day when we're all going to be able to agree on everything. That's the beauty of agency. I think that if Satan's plan was the one we were living right now, there'd still be complaining. It's how we work. But as for me, I'm going to strive to be the best person I can be and worry about me and my own. Because the only person I'm EVER going to be accountable for 100% is me. And I can't waste my life away worrying about what every other person on this earth thinks of me. Because in my eyes there's only one judgment time I need to worry about. And I can't be more grateful that I'm so naive and brainwashed to truly believe that. HA!

Loves loves. :]

20 years old, man...and still young!!!

Okay, so maybe 20 isn't as close to be being 250 like dude Crush in Finding Nemo. But it served its purpose. :]

Anyways, at this moment I'm typing it's 2355 (11:55 PM in non military time. :]). Exactly five more minutes left of my twentieth birthday day. Haha. And it was a great day! :] Even though I had to work I got a goodnight/birthday kiss. And it was a kiss from a man whom is a candidate in the running toward becoming my eternal companion. We'll hope this goes well for sure! :]

Loves loves! :]

Never has a kiss been so sweet...

So, yeah. On Tuesday night, I think...or Monday...but I'm pretty sure it was Tuesday... Anyways, I met my good friend Neil at the Matheson track to walk around. :] At the end of the walk and talk he kissed me... :] Probably THE best kiss of my life. Although, he wants to take this super slow, which I don't blame him. I want to, too. That way I hopefully can't manage to ruin it. So, I probably won't get to kiss him again very soon...but it's totally worth the wait. We seriously have not known each other for very long...but nothing has ever felt so right and amazing and I am just thoroughly twitterpated. :] The best part of this?! He's on the exact same page as me. LOVE IT! :] So, that's part of the details. More to follow. :]

Loves loves. :]

If this is love....

Then I DO NOT want it to end!!!
I repeat I DO NOT want it to end!! :]

Loves loves. :]

Do you want me? Do you not? Does it feel cold, baby? Does it feel hot? :]

Well, it's been a while since I've written an entry... and believe me I've meant to. Unfortunately, the times I had time to write I didn't know what to say. And then there were the times I had something to write but didn't have any time. Ugh, complications. Haha.

Well it's been an up and down month. On the fifth we left on vacation to Florida where we went to DisneyWorld! :] It was a fun and hectic trip, but TOTALLY worth the time away from work. Luckily on the fourth, the day before I left, my district manager came in and I had a nice talk with him and Nancy and got a bunch of things off my chest and I believe that they sure were resolved. Work has never been better, and plus I think that I sincerely needed that vacation.

This week has been especially FANTASTIC. I made a new friend, his name is Neil. And OH MY GOODNESS! :D I do believe I've never had a friendship develop so quickly and into such a strong one. He's made my week excellent. I'm definitely looking forward from here (Don't fuss, I'll keep you in the loop :]). :] Well...it's now one of those points where I don't really know what else to say. But, I will for sure not go so long without posting again, no worries. :]

Loves loves. :]

You don't know what you got, 'til you're missing it a lot. I had to go throw it away...

Well, the past few weeks have been great and weird and depressed moody all at the same time. I've been feeling lonely...which is weird. But it's how it is. I've also felt somewhat empty. My Mom's been getting quite a bit of work and I've actually enjoyed helping her, tonight was an exception because I didn't do the greatest job helping her. I guess, retardedly, I'm just tired. So why I'm still awake now and instead of in bed, where I know I should be, but still here at the computer I sit. I sit. I guess for lack of a better term I've felt somewhat empty... I'm not one hundred percent sure why, but I do. I'm certain it has something to do with the fact that I haven't been to church in a couple weeks...and won't be until the second Sunday of June. I wasn't there the 23rd because of my stupid job. I wasn't there Sunday the 30th because my family and I went down to Richfield for Memorial Day...so instead of being in church I was at the Richfield Cemetery for 2 hours and immediately after was the Monroe Cemetery for an additional 2 hours and got the sunburn of my life on my chest and it hurts like a monkey.

I am getting so sick of the people I work with I could puke, and here's why. Well, the most recent chunk of what's been building up. Anyways, on Friday I found out that Shanna was going to get Saturday the 29th off to make up for hours that she'd be working on Monday the 31st, which is totally fine, were it not for the fact that she didn't work on Thursday therefore making it so she didn't go over hours and wouldn't need Saturday off. You see, at my work we get 2 days off a week. The pay period starts on Thursday and ends on the following Wednesday. And when a holiday lands on your day off you need to have another day off. I.E. Memorial Day, always lands on a Monday. Monday's are Nancy's day off. So she had to have today off, another day off in the same pay period, to make it so she didn't go over hours. And recently Shanna has acquired Mondays off as well, to accommodate Nancy's being busy on Thursdays now due to the doctor coming in for five appointments in the morning, anyways that's beside the point. So, Shanna needed another day off in the same pay period, right? Right. And she didn't work Thursday, correct? Yes. So, I now ask WHY does she need another day off? She's already had here other day off, right? So, if she doesn't work Saturday then she'll be short on hours, correct? Yes, yes, yes, YES! Okay, so I'm not upset she's going to be short on hours, that doesn't affect me. What bothers me to NO END is the fact that they both dismiss my comments and treat me like I'm some 20 year-old know-nothing twit. And it's infuriating. I'm not stupid. I do, in fact, know what I'm talking about and you do not need to treat me like I'm some sort of retard. Nancy, did you not hire me? Did you not trust my judgment? So, why the ignorance now? I'd like to see your face once I tell you bye-bye and Shanna winds up being a gigantic pain in your ass. A pain in the ass who lies to your face and who steals from your company. I just do not trust her. I don't trust you, Nancy and I need to find a new job NOW!
Ugh, I'm so aggravated and tired and just DONE with it all.

Loves loves. :]