Random Kayli facts...

Well I have decided that since nothing much that is special or exciting is going on in my life I figured I'd share a few random facts that not a lot of people know about me...and some of these facts I probably have told some people, and some are just "we already knew that about you Kayli" things. :]

• I love Cafe Rio. It's so stinking nummy! Two chicken enchiladas, mild sauce, pinto beans, and rice, with lettuce it my favorite.
• I've been finding lately that I like to read....not a ton....but I quite enjoy it...sometimes.
• I am a clutz. I burn myself, I trip over flat surfaces, I bump into things, I stab myself with jewelers screwdrivers. Just a TON of stupid things.
• I'm very forgetful...if you want me to remember it you must write it on a post-it note and stick it to my forehead and then remind me to actually read it.
  
• I LOVE Jeff Gordon. He is my most favorite NASCAR driver ever!
  
• I love NASCAR.
• I love open wheel racing.
• I love to play with cars.
• I have a secret desire to become a mechanic. Cars excite me.
• I want to find my Edward.
• I love looking at pictures. They bring back great memories and make me smile.
• I LOVE milk.
• I have a strong passion for music.
  
• I love all types of music from country to rock and classical to opera.
• One of these days I WILL go to Hawaii and just relax my butt under an umbrella and just soak up the beauty of the beach and the ocean.
• I love cute quotes.
• My Dad is one of my most favorite people in the world. Even though he has his ornery days I still love being around him and taking shopping trips to Lowe's and help him build things.
  
• My Mom is the strongest, best person and friend I have. She'll always set me straight. And no matter how obstinate I am I still love and respect her more than she'll ever know.
• I love technology. Computers are stinking awesome.
  
• I have a love for playing solitaire. Not just on the computer, but with real cards. My Great Uncle Clark would sit at the bar at his place and I'd sit there for an hour or so just watching him. He's the one who taught me how to play.
• I love to sing and dance in the car.
• I'm very picky about things. I don't like things to be messy, even though you would never be able to tell from the mess of a room I have. But it's an organized mess, I think. ;]
• I want so badly to have nice handwriting. I'd love to do calligraphy and I even have a practice kit from 7th grade.
• I love movies.
• I love to sit in silence....sometimes. But then after not too long I get bored and sing to myself. It's awesome. ;] Haha!

Well that's all I can really think of for now...maybe we'll do another session like this later. Haha.

Loves loves. :]

In loving memory of Riley Doyle Jenkins 7/10/1990-1/19/2010

On Tuesday January 19th 2010 a friend I've known for nearly 14 years now passed away. Now the real reason of how he passed is unknown to everyone but Christ, Riley, and his family. I've listed the lyrics to a really great song by Rascal Flatts called "Why" and it says everything. It's been a hard week and it's just one of those things that you just can't seem to wrap your head around. And it's so sad. This kid was two days older than me. He's always been such a great great great friend. And his death is so tragic. I've never been more thankful, and thoughtful, about how grateful I am for eternal families. I know that if I didn't have that knowledge I couldn't get through the day. But thanks to my religion I KNOW that life doesn't end here on this earth, families are forever, and the repentance was made possible through Christ's sacrifice. I can not express how bad I feel for Riley's family and how much he will be missed. I love you SO much Riley and I can't wait to play basketball in heaven...even though you'll kick my butt. Love ya Riley. :]

Rascal Flatts "Why"...
It must of been in a place so dark, you couldn't feel the light
Reachin' for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little home town
This can't be the way you meant to draw a crowd

Oh why that's what I keep askin'
Was there anything I could have said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul, god only knows
What went wrong and why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song

Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
Rounding third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage you shined just like the sun

Oh why that's what I keep askin'
Was there anything I could have said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul, God only knows
What went wrong and why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song
Yeah yeah yeah

Now the oak trees are swayin' in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
The tangled thoughts I hear a mockingbird sing
This old world really ain't that bad a place

Oh why there's no comprehending
And who am I to try to judge or explain
Oh but I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn't worth the fight?
They were wrong
They lied
And now you're gone
And we cried

Cause It's not like you to walk away in the middle of a song

Your beautiful song
Your absolutely beautiful song

White lines and red lights...

So there's this song my wonderful friend Cherish introduced me to. It's called "White lines and red lights" by Between the Trees. And I must say that I love the lyrics and the lead singers voice is absolutely gorgeous. :] I've decided to post the lyrics because they are my favorite. :]

Late night, driving home together
And at red lights we press our lips together
And we're holding tight now
Slow it down now
Let's take our time
Let the moment last
Until it feels right
Holding back
And not getting to carried away
Let the music fade

Cause you are the brightest star
I'm in love with who you are
And you are the brightest star
I'm lost without your love

We are in each others arms
Just like a movie scene
Cause as we're leaning in
The light decides to turn green
Me and you together
This is getting better
Just butterflies won't do
I don't want just red lights
I want more of these nights
Baby I love you

Cause you are the brightest star
I'm in love with who you are
And you are the brightest star
I'm lost without your love

You and me is what matters most
It's not the intimacy that brings me
Closer to you...

And I just think they are awesome lyrics. Maybe that's just me. But I love the song.

I wish more eventful things were happening in life right now...but they're not. BLAH!! Just a boring college student. I guess that's life, eh? It's crazy how you can feel so alone without being alone. And I know it's pathetic because having a guy doesn't make you complete...but if only there was someone there to talk to who could could understand where I'm at in life and tell me that it's going to be okay and actually be able to believe what they're saying is true. Right now it seems like there are not a lot of friends for me to talk to right now. Which I know is probably a ridiculous thing to say, but it's how it feels sometimes. And it's probably just me being pathetic, which is what has been known to happen. Oh well. I guess things will get better in its own time. At least it better, or I might have to hit someone. Haha.

Loves loves.

I'm woven in a fantasy, I can't believe the things I see. The path that I have chosen now has led me to a wall...

Hello Wednesday! At 8:50 this morning I finished my 3rd day of the semester and this math professor of mine is going to be...interesting. I hope I can grasp it. I pray I can.

Only five more hours of work until my day off. I'm excited! Just had to share that. :]

So at work we had this lady, we call her the haggard lady...you'll see why. Anyways, she came in and got an exam from Dr. Shosted, our newest doctor, and got gas permeable contacts. Which, to say the least, are hard to fit on people. The way it works is gas perms are a hard contact. And each contact is specially measured and made specifically for one person. They do not make gas perms in bulk and keep 'em in a shop. They each have to be special ordered from a specialty lab and fitted to a person. Well practically every time they are going to have to be remade because it doesn't fit the eye ideally. Whether it be the curvature of the lens is too flat, too steep, the contact isn't wide enough or it's too wide. Stuff like that. So contact lens follow up appointments are absolutely crucial!

Well the haggard lady got the exam, ordered the contacts, tried them but NEVER got back to us to schedule a contact lens follow up. And she picked them up over a month ago. Well her Mom calls me and says how she can't see out of the contacts and blah blah blah. Anyways, we schedule a contact lens follow up. The day of she cancels because of something stupid. She calls again a couple days later and schedules another appointment with Dr. Shosted, who only comes in on Wednesdays. So the haggard lady calls me about 15 minutes before her appointment.
Our phone conversation involved her screaming at me about how incompetent Dr. Shosted is and how she's NEVER had problems before. She also complained about Dr. Shosted not doing what's called a "Phorias" on her, which tests the muscles in your eyes. But she thought that measured the astigmatism...which it doesn't. So she demanded seeing the other doctor, Dr. Peirce, and told me she didn't want to see Dr. Shosted at all. And so I told her that if she wanted to see a different doctor it would cost her $110, the cost of a new gas permeable contact lens appointment. She flipped out at me. Saying how she was going to sue the company for an incompetent doctor and blah blah blah.
Okay. So if you go to the doctor for a cold. The cold medicine doesn't work and you want to see a different doctor you're going to have to pay another copay, correct?! This is the EXACT same thing. Dr. Peirce and Dr. Shosted are in no way affiliated, with the exception of working for JCPenney part time. If you want to see Dr. Peirce you're going to have to pay. End of story. I will NOT order contacts until you pay. You will get a bill and if you don't respond it will go to collections. I don't think that anyone would want that.

Anyways, she still was throwing a fit. And so she says to just make her an appointment with Dr. Peirce on Saturday at 4. So I do. And SHE CANCELS IT 20 minutes before!! Then makes another appointment for Tuesday, January 12th at 5:00 PM. Which she shows up to. And thankfully Nancy was there because I wouldn't have been so nice to her. Haha. Anyways she goes in and her Dad just brings us into their family drama. Which is none of my business. I don't care...OH AND she steals my lighter that I let her "borrow" WTH woman?! Anyways, Dr. Peirce decides not to charge her. Which is fine, but I can't tell her ahead of time because that's Dr. Peirce's choice, not mine. So she leaves. And as we're looking at the two charts, one from Dr. Shosted and the new one from Dr. Peirce, things just weren't adding up. Dr. Shosted did a PERFECT eyeglass prescription, so it doesn't make sense that the contacts are working SO horribly. If anything the fit should be bad, not the ability to see out of them. So we decide to put the contact on the lensometer to check the prescription. And guess what, oh but before I tell you the real kicker of the story she also lost her "left contact". So okay after looking at the prescription we find that SHE switched the lenses. Put the right contact in her left eye and put the left contact in her right eye. THAT'S WHY YOU COULDN'T SEE MORON! Because YOU didn't pay attention to the identification dot on the RIGHT lens SWITCHED the lenses and tried to blame everything on Dr. Shosted.

So in all reality, she switched the lenses. Lost the RIGHT lens and now we're going to change the curvature of the lens and order a new RIGHT lens and she has to pay for it.
BAH!
The thing of it is, this woman and her mother have been wacky, old haggard, ornery, crack heads. That have been no less than a pain in our butts. Goodness gracious. I hope that these two ladies are the most psycho I have to deal with. For real.

Other than the old haggard lady, things are going well. For the most part. Boy junk has been on my mind a lot lately. And that's driving me insane. I hate looking the mirror...hopefully we can change that this year though. :]]

I had a funny stor....OH! I remember. Yesterday was the first day for my English 1010 class, and there were these two asian ladies and as the professor was calling role and she called the name "Hannah" which was one of these two asian ladies...then immediately after the professor called out "Bing Bing" which was the other asian lady. And well Hannah leaned over to Bing Bing and said "That's funny" And laughed! And I could not help but laugh! Just because your name is "Hannah", which I don't think is your real name young lady, and Bing Bing doesn't go by some fake american name like, Denise or something, doesn't give you the right to LAUGH at her! Haha. I cracked up. I think that's the funniest thing ever! :]

Loves loves!

Reach for the stars, even if you have to stand on a cactus!

Well, my Sunday is officially over. I feel like today has FLOWN, literally, flown by. And now there's another 3 whole days until my next day off. Tomorrow marks the beginning of a new semester and I think I might die. I'm still not too sure that taking a class at 8 am every Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday is such a great idea...if only parking were easier and I didn't have to work at 10 on Monday mornings. I hope I can adjust well and that I don't wear myself out.

And may I say that being a poor college student is no fun at all! I am so grateful I have a job, though. Otherwise I wouldn't be able to take any classes at all and my education would have stopped at high school.

I love cute quotes. They're my favorite. Like "Happiness is being married to your best friend" or "The road is bright before us, as hand in hand we start. We'll travel on together, one mind, one soul, one heart." or even...."My love for you is a journey; starting at forever and ending at never." Say it with me now; AWWW! :]

Anyways, I've got to get up kinda, sorta, early so I'd better get to bed now.

Loves loves.

You're not the only one with guns, bitch!

So we just got back from seeing Avatar. And I must say that I thoroughly enjoyed it. The title of this post is my favorite line in the whole movie. :]

Today was a pretty good day. Went to work. Went grocery shopping for the first time in a long long time with my Mom. And then when we got home I went with Lisa and a few of her friends to see Avatar. And it was a good night. Of course the car ride home couldn't be a real trip with Lisa without her bellyaching about my driving at a few points in time. Which really quite pisses me off. So I piss her off just because I can. It's great fun. :] Point is we all got home safely and no harm was done. Some days I wish she's just shut her trap and let me drive. I've been driving three years longer than she has. I do believe I know what I'm doing. I've never been in an accident, so just chill please.

At the beginning of the car ride we changed the radio station to one that was playing "All Around Me" by Flyleaf, haven't heard that song in ages. Anywho, there's a part of the song that says "You said you would never leave me. I believed you..." and it pissed me off. I have to point out that I hate being lied to.

When you told me we would never stop being friends, I can't believe I actually believed you. I'm so hurt by you I can't even stand it some days. Thanks a lot pal.

A reflection on 2009.

So I decided that I'm gonna go through 2009 and think about how good the year actually was...or what it might have been lacking.

January- I'd been working at JCPenney for about 2 and a half months. Was still dating Brandon. And taking a few classes at SLCC. I was happy with life then.

February- Still working. Still taking classes. Still dating Brandon. Had the most....interesting Valentine's day of my life. Life was still good. For the most part. Aside from Brandon moving to Cody, WY.

March- Relationship ends. Which honestly turned out to be a good thing. He's now engaged to a terrific girl, who understands him better than I think I ever could. I felt a bit heartbroken for a while. But as I said before it really turned out to be for the better. Got me braces off!! Still working at JCPenney Optical. Life is pretty good.

April- Still working. April didn't really have anything eventful happen. It was Moms birthday. Other then that. Nodda thing.

May- Same as April.

June- Same as April and May. BUT I did get my own cell phone. :] First time in my cell phone times I'd been able to text all I want and it's my phone. One that I pay for and not the parentals. :]] Love it!

July- Same as the past few months. BUT I turned 19...the last of my teenager years. Crazy.

August- Same with work. But classes ended...in May actually. Haha. This month I did get invited to a YSA activity and re-met Wesley. Who would turn out to be one of the greatest friends I've ever had.

September- Same with work. School started on August 26th-ish. September 2nd. Began actual relationship with Wesley. One of the happiest days in 2009. :] Life is amazing.

October- Same with work. Celebrated my one year anniversary with U.S. Vision on October 21st.
Sunday October 25th. Had the hardest phone conversation of my life. Relationship ends. It still hurts my heart. That boy was one of the best friends I'd ever had. He knows things about me that I haven't told one other soul. And won't. It kills me that we don't talk anymore. But I guess that's just how it goes sometimes. I hope to be able to reconcile my friendship with him someday. But that one is entirely up to him.

November- A hard month. Same with work. I took my first PTO days of my entire working time at U.S. Vision and went down to Ephraim to spend a few days with one of the most amazing ladies I know, Cherish Michael Wagner. That was some good fun! :] Thanksgiving this year was one that I will not forget, and not because of its kicking good times, but because it is the day my Granny went in to get what would essentially become a quadruple bypass and leaky valve repair. Thanksgiving dinner at Marie Calendars. What sticker shock that one was. Granny stays in the hospital for a few more weeks.

December- Still working at Penney's. This December was one filled with a great Christmas spirit. I found myself just giddy for Christmas and more excited and appreciative of my family then I have been in a few years. Christmas was great. I had a terrific morning with my Moms side of the family, minus the getting car sick on the ride to Alpine. Then we made our way down to St. George to spend the weekend with my Grandma and Grandpa Christensen. A great holiday. Followed by the next good last week of 2009. I started my 2010 after a four day weekend of playing Yahtzee with the family. :]

So I guess 2009 was overall a good year. It was hard and painful. Full of tears being shed. Depressed moments and great moments. I'm so so SO grateful for the wonderful friends in my life. And I'm grateful to the ones who aren't really present at all in my life anymore, well he is still very much real in my head...but not in my phone or on my Facebook...It sucks really bad. And part of it that makes it twenty times worse is that I have this feeling that he's doing just peachy. And couldn't give one damn that I'm gone. But I guess I'll never know. And I pray to the Lord every night for me to be okay with it.

Loves loves. :]

He's into me for everything I'm not...according to you.

So today's been a day. :] A lovely day off filled with El Habenero, going to the bank, and getting my oil changed and tires rotated at Jiffy Lube. Then tonight the Madrigals and Show Choir performed at the special needs mutual. And that my friends was awesome! :]


I must tell you that I heard this song on the radio. And these are the lyrics:

According to you
I’m stupid,
I’m useless,
I can’t do anything right.
According to you
I’m difficult,
hard to please,
forever changing my mind.
I’m a mess in a dress,
can’t show up on time,
even if it would save my life.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you.

According to you
I’m boring,
I’m moody,
you can’t take me any place.
According to you
I suck at telling jokes cause I always give it away.
I’m the girl with the worst attention span;
you’re the boy who puts up with it.
According to you. According to you.

But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
so baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you.

I need to feel appreciated,
like I’m not hated. oh no
Why can’t you see me through his eyes?
It’s too bad you’re making me dizz-ay

According to me
you’re stupid,
you’re useless,
you can’t do anything right.
But according to him
I’m beautiful,
incredible,
he can’t get me out of his head.
According to him
I’m funny,
irresistible,
everything he ever wanted.
Everything is opposite,
I don’t feel like stopping it,
baby tell me what I got to lose.
He’s into me for everything I’m not,
according to you. [you, you]
According to you. [you, you]

According to you
I’m stupid,
I’m useless,
I can’t do anything right

And I must say that I simply LOVE this song! :]]

Oh joy. Work tomorrow. :]]

Loves loves.

Well I must be crazy...

Well hello there. A lot of friends of mine have blogs. So I figured I need some place to place my long stories of my crazy days. So here I am. I also think that I need to get better at my witty writing skills and maybe this will help some. ;]

I officially love texting. End of June-ish of this year I got my own cell phone, with AT&T, and I have unlimited text and picture messaging. And I love it.

I think that sometime tomorrow morning I will finish posting the rest of my thoughts. But it's almost too late to complete my thoughts in my head. And there's nothing I hate more than posting typos that I can't take back. So hopefully when my brain is better rested I can spit my thoughts out. :]

Loves loves. :]