A reflection on 2009.

So I decided that I'm gonna go through 2009 and think about how good the year actually was...or what it might have been lacking.

January- I'd been working at JCPenney for about 2 and a half months. Was still dating Brandon. And taking a few classes at SLCC. I was happy with life then.

February- Still working. Still taking classes. Still dating Brandon. Had the most....interesting Valentine's day of my life. Life was still good. For the most part. Aside from Brandon moving to Cody, WY.

March- Relationship ends. Which honestly turned out to be a good thing. He's now engaged to a terrific girl, who understands him better than I think I ever could. I felt a bit heartbroken for a while. But as I said before it really turned out to be for the better. Got me braces off!! Still working at JCPenney Optical. Life is pretty good.

April- Still working. April didn't really have anything eventful happen. It was Moms birthday. Other then that. Nodda thing.

May- Same as April.

June- Same as April and May. BUT I did get my own cell phone. :] First time in my cell phone times I'd been able to text all I want and it's my phone. One that I pay for and not the parentals. :]] Love it!

July- Same as the past few months. BUT I turned 19...the last of my teenager years. Crazy.

August- Same with work. But classes ended...in May actually. Haha. This month I did get invited to a YSA activity and re-met Wesley. Who would turn out to be one of the greatest friends I've ever had.

September- Same with work. School started on August 26th-ish. September 2nd. Began actual relationship with Wesley. One of the happiest days in 2009. :] Life is amazing.

October- Same with work. Celebrated my one year anniversary with U.S. Vision on October 21st.
Sunday October 25th. Had the hardest phone conversation of my life. Relationship ends. It still hurts my heart. That boy was one of the best friends I'd ever had. He knows things about me that I haven't told one other soul. And won't. It kills me that we don't talk anymore. But I guess that's just how it goes sometimes. I hope to be able to reconcile my friendship with him someday. But that one is entirely up to him.

November- A hard month. Same with work. I took my first PTO days of my entire working time at U.S. Vision and went down to Ephraim to spend a few days with one of the most amazing ladies I know, Cherish Michael Wagner. That was some good fun! :] Thanksgiving this year was one that I will not forget, and not because of its kicking good times, but because it is the day my Granny went in to get what would essentially become a quadruple bypass and leaky valve repair. Thanksgiving dinner at Marie Calendars. What sticker shock that one was. Granny stays in the hospital for a few more weeks.

December- Still working at Penney's. This December was one filled with a great Christmas spirit. I found myself just giddy for Christmas and more excited and appreciative of my family then I have been in a few years. Christmas was great. I had a terrific morning with my Moms side of the family, minus the getting car sick on the ride to Alpine. Then we made our way down to St. George to spend the weekend with my Grandma and Grandpa Christensen. A great holiday. Followed by the next good last week of 2009. I started my 2010 after a four day weekend of playing Yahtzee with the family. :]

So I guess 2009 was overall a good year. It was hard and painful. Full of tears being shed. Depressed moments and great moments. I'm so so SO grateful for the wonderful friends in my life. And I'm grateful to the ones who aren't really present at all in my life anymore, well he is still very much real in my head...but not in my phone or on my Facebook...It sucks really bad. And part of it that makes it twenty times worse is that I have this feeling that he's doing just peachy. And couldn't give one damn that I'm gone. But I guess I'll never know. And I pray to the Lord every night for me to be okay with it.

Loves loves. :]