Well this week has been a good one I'd say. Got to have the day off due to hours today. AND I get tomorrow off. Which I'm rather excited about, especially since my little sister Lisa will be home. Dang that snow. I mean REALLY I was planning on being nice to my dog and taking her out for a walk while getting myself some exercise.
I have decided that I need to change my eating and work out habits. The work out habits especially, because for the last real long time, I have had no sort of work out regimen or any drive to get off my butt. But now we are GOING to change that.
I've said since high school that attitude is everything. And I truly believe that fully. If you have the attitude that you can't to do anything you really won't be able to do anything. If your telling yourself that you're going to go nowhere in life you will go nowhere. If you keep telling yourself that you can you're going to find that you really can. And there's where I'm changing my attitude about working out. I will find a way.
Yes there are certain things that I absolutely hate to do. RUNNING is one of them. I HATE running. My chest goes up and down like nobody's business and it makes me incredibly uncomfortable and self-conscious. Plus I, and I'm sorry this is a little bit of tmi, but I can hold in my pee as well as a woman who's had 5 children. And anything rigorous or something stupid like jumping up and down, doing jumping jacks, and even jump roping. And it just BUGS me. I HATE feeling like an old granny who can't make it to the freaking bathroom in time. So, I've done my darndest to keep from running no matter what. Well I'm hoping that I can change that. We'll see. Since it snowed today I couldn't try it out, but I will. Soon I hope.
I'm sorry for the lameness nature of this blog but I just can't really think of a ton to write about.
OH! But I did buy a book today about marriage and stuff from Seagull Book and a talk on CD from this one Mary lady addressing single people. AND and orange chocolate truffle. Needless to say I've already enjoyed my truffle. :] Oh, and I must add that there is this boy in my writing class and he is just TOO cute. I think I've decided that I want to try to buddy up with him a little bit more.... because he is too cute and single and RM to pass by! :]]
Loves loves!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Come what may and love it!
Yes, dear friends. I have changed the name of my blog to fit my motto for the year. I've come to realize that I haven't exactly been the best person I can be. And after a few realizations and events that have taken place I find the drive to actually DO something. This is something I've never felt before...it's also something I've been praying to feel for quite some time. And I'm excited to get my life going in a good direction. I want to be a better person. I want to get rid of some old habits while creating new ones. I want to do good things with my life. Make a difference somehow. I want a better future for myself. And I find myself thinking that I could do whatever I set my mind do. This is also a new feeling to me. I mean, I guess I've always known I could but as I've thought about it; I've always bs'd my through things. Through school, for an example, I never applied myself I only stuck with what felt safe and comfortable to me. I never have gone outside the box. I've been lazy and relied on food and tv to get me through the day. Well NOT anymore. I will be the best Kayli I can be and I know that when I do it will be enough. It has to be enough.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Pardon me for my lack of excitement but I'm not entirely thrilled...
Why hello. :] It's been a while I realize. Sorry. It has been a crazy past couple of weeks. The weekend after Valentine's day my family and I took a quick one day trip to St. George to visit my ailing Grandpa. The Thursday after the Thursday after that I flew up to Boise (paid by my company) to go and work this expo we were having at the Boise store. After working approximately 35 hours in 3 days I fly home on Sunday night. Well during my little business trip, Friday March 5th to be exact, I got a call from my Mom telling me that my Grandpa had passed away. And I am so sad to see him go. Thank heaven for the knowledge of eternal families and the knowledge that I will see my Grandpa again.
Merrill Don Christensen was my Fathers, Father. He was born June 9th 1937 and passed away at approximately 3:00 AM on Friday March 5th 2010. He is the only Grandpa that I've really had a relationship with. Well, we didn't really have that close of a relationship but he has been in my life so much more than Charlie (my Mom's Father, which in all fairness to my wonderful mother is NOT her fault. And because of the choices he's made in his life I really have no interest in having a relationship with him.)
I loved my Grandpa very very much. He was always a quiet loving man and was a diabetic. Lisa and I would always love to go and watch him check his blood sugar and administer his insulin to himself. It was actually quite fascinating and he never would mind. Since My Grandma and Grandpa Christensen lived in St. George we didn't really get to see them very often. With the exception of Thanksgiving. We'd always go down to St. George for Thanksgiving and enjoy beautiful meals. Getting together with that side of the family was always enjoyable. No matter the little, meaningless, tiffs that we'd have we'd always seem to make it good times together.
Because of some of the events of the past weeks it's caused me to evaluate my life and where I'm at.
I will admit that I'm still not entirely happy with where I am but can now realize that there are worse places I could be.
I have the greatest parents in the world. I love them more than anything. Even though I can be stubborn and a sure pain in the butt for them sometimes they still love me unconditionally, and I couldn't be more grateful for their example. Or more grateful that I've been raised in the Gospel.
I've been having a tough time the past couple of months, and this is something I've never had to struggle with. I've never had my faith shaken or questions pop up in my mind about things that I really just don't even care to know about. There are questions that have come to mind and doubts that had been placed there and I've seen the power of Satan. He is a beast and I don't like him at all. I'm sorry, but he is a monster. I've seen, probably more now than ever before, just how he gets to you. It all starts with just this tiny sliver of doubt in your mind and then once he's there he'll find ways to clearly shake you even further. And the realization of this scares me SO much. I hate the thought that just because of the tiniest sliver of doubt it can grow into a full on fall from Christ. And I refuse to let myself get to that point. I don't think so dude. I will NOT be a vulnerable fool who lets you in for two seconds. I know now more than ever how true the church is. I don't care who you are but I KNOW that it is. And I feel sorry for anyone who doesn't have that knowledge for themselves but your day will come. I've seen the power of the Lord, and the strength he gives me is stronger than any sliver of doubt that can ever be put into my mind.
I chose to come to this earth to be a good person, to grow and to learn, to become a wife and a mother and to grow close to the Lord. I chose to come and face the trials that I've faced and I know that there are so many more to come. But I can take it. With the strength my faith gives me and the power of prayer I will not fall, I will succeed and I will prevail and I will be with my Heavenly Father again. I will walk with my Savior, Jesus Christ who died for me; who shed so many drops of blood for my sins. I can't ever repay him but I can do my best. And try to be the best person I know I can be and hope that's enough.
Merrill Don Christensen was my Fathers, Father. He was born June 9th 1937 and passed away at approximately 3:00 AM on Friday March 5th 2010. He is the only Grandpa that I've really had a relationship with. Well, we didn't really have that close of a relationship but he has been in my life so much more than Charlie (my Mom's Father, which in all fairness to my wonderful mother is NOT her fault. And because of the choices he's made in his life I really have no interest in having a relationship with him.)
I loved my Grandpa very very much. He was always a quiet loving man and was a diabetic. Lisa and I would always love to go and watch him check his blood sugar and administer his insulin to himself. It was actually quite fascinating and he never would mind. Since My Grandma and Grandpa Christensen lived in St. George we didn't really get to see them very often. With the exception of Thanksgiving. We'd always go down to St. George for Thanksgiving and enjoy beautiful meals. Getting together with that side of the family was always enjoyable. No matter the little, meaningless, tiffs that we'd have we'd always seem to make it good times together.
Because of some of the events of the past weeks it's caused me to evaluate my life and where I'm at.
I will admit that I'm still not entirely happy with where I am but can now realize that there are worse places I could be.
I have the greatest parents in the world. I love them more than anything. Even though I can be stubborn and a sure pain in the butt for them sometimes they still love me unconditionally, and I couldn't be more grateful for their example. Or more grateful that I've been raised in the Gospel.
I've been having a tough time the past couple of months, and this is something I've never had to struggle with. I've never had my faith shaken or questions pop up in my mind about things that I really just don't even care to know about. There are questions that have come to mind and doubts that had been placed there and I've seen the power of Satan. He is a beast and I don't like him at all. I'm sorry, but he is a monster. I've seen, probably more now than ever before, just how he gets to you. It all starts with just this tiny sliver of doubt in your mind and then once he's there he'll find ways to clearly shake you even further. And the realization of this scares me SO much. I hate the thought that just because of the tiniest sliver of doubt it can grow into a full on fall from Christ. And I refuse to let myself get to that point. I don't think so dude. I will NOT be a vulnerable fool who lets you in for two seconds. I know now more than ever how true the church is. I don't care who you are but I KNOW that it is. And I feel sorry for anyone who doesn't have that knowledge for themselves but your day will come. I've seen the power of the Lord, and the strength he gives me is stronger than any sliver of doubt that can ever be put into my mind.
I chose to come to this earth to be a good person, to grow and to learn, to become a wife and a mother and to grow close to the Lord. I chose to come and face the trials that I've faced and I know that there are so many more to come. But I can take it. With the strength my faith gives me and the power of prayer I will not fall, I will succeed and I will prevail and I will be with my Heavenly Father again. I will walk with my Savior, Jesus Christ who died for me; who shed so many drops of blood for my sins. I can't ever repay him but I can do my best. And try to be the best person I know I can be and hope that's enough.
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