Hello there blogging community and world wide web. And even the few, few people who actually read this blog here. I figured I just leave a small post today, seeing as I've been slacking the past few weeks. Nothing much has been going on lately that's new. Just the usual. Sucking and school, work, and sucking at being a daughter and sister. I try to be good, but I just hurt people when I really really don't mean to.
Work's been good I suppose. It's super nice to have Shanna around because yesterday Nancy and I would have died being alone. Luckily we survived. :]
Last Sunday was the Daytona 500 and I'm happy that Jamie McMurray won. Yes, yes I would've preferred my baby, Jeff Gordon #24 for those of you that for some reason did not know, winning. But I'm SO happy that JJ did not finish. 1st race of the season and he got a dnf. HAHA!
I've almost officially decided that I will end up an old ornery woman who's lonely and who hates people. Which I hope that I do not...but for some reason I just can't help but not feel worthy of anything happy, because I find myself feeling like I don't deserve happiness. I don't exactly know why, but I don't.
Oh well...I guess if I want to change things, I'm going to have to change them.
I've also found myself not happy with where I am right now. I have half a mind to not take any classes anymore and just go flip burgers at In and Out Burger. But I know I must continue on and I WILL be where I want to be in life one day. I'm still not there and not exactly sure what's going to make me happy. But I will figure it out. :]
Loves loves. :]
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Oh sweet Kaylee. This post makes me want to cry. I remember so well some of these feeling you're talking about, and I remember thinking that I wasn't "worthy" of happiness, but it just isn't true! Satan, in his cunning wisdom brings us down to rock bottom, he's the one who makes you feel as if you're not worthy. Look to Christ, girlie. Find strength in him. I know that it's hard to not have everything happen how you want it, when you want it, and where you want it, but that's not the point in life. Life is a TRIAL!! It's not suppose to be some easy test. Each of us is allowed to feel pain, sorrow, disappointment (in ourselves or others) and joy! You have to remember the JOY Kaylee. That's what keeps us going. There's nothing we can do about timing, or wants that go unfulfilled. They will fulfill themselves in their own due time. Do not despair. I know you are a chosen daughter of God, and I feel privileged to know you. Find peace in knowing that even though things might not be how you want them to be, you have someone who knows what's best for you (your loving Father-in-heaven). Keep smiling girlie girl. Don't sweat the small stuff.
ReplyDelete